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a few entries back, i wrote about the little accident i had on my skateboard as i was coming down a hill at manoa. today, i was reading the school newspaper when one particular article caught my eye—it was about a skater who fell off his board as he was bombing down a hill at my school. sadly, he was not as fortunate as i was:

kaikuki resident gary laa, 20, was skateboarding down a slope with his friends on the campus when he fell off his board. at approximately 1:55 a.m. on monday, february 18 he was found in front of the ilima building unconscious. a campus security guard reported hearing his fall and ran over to discover laa on the pavement. according to the honolulu advertiser, laa was taken to the queen's medical center in critical condition where he died at 9:15 a.m. there have been no other accidents reported on campus, but security has said that a number of people have been seen skateboarding on campus after hours, which is prohibited. family and friends set up a memorial and were seen on campus on wednesday, february 20 where they paid tribute to their friend. the shrine dedicated to laa was covered with messages, candles, opened beer cans, cigarettes and flowers.

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michelle's always giving me the coolest nicknames. hell, just these past few months alone i've collected the following: mark-o, marky mark, marker, marco polo, numbnut.

don't ask how she came up with the last one...

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"don't try to understand it. the most destructive high shoots my nerves into the sky. everybody's looking for something. i know just what i need. i'm addicted to the speed. rent a cops try to stop me. i wanna see you try. i just want to skate or die."

- against all authority

jason and i stared down at the hill. it looked easy enough... though i've never attempted to bomb a hill so steep. i reminded myself of nick and joey tershay, who are known for bombing 10 blocks of the 9th avenue in san francisco.



"ok, i'm going," i said to jason. i got on my board and started my descent. the skateboard picked up speed quickly. it was quite an adrenaline rush.

suddenly, the board picked up speed wobbles. never had gone this fast before, i wondered if skateboards were even made to go in this speed. i felt the wheels underneath me shifting rapidly. probably the smart thing for me to do was to stop... but i held on. i was stubborn. i wanted to push myself.

the board picked up even more speed. the next thing i knew, i found myself "flying" off the board. i can't look, i thought. i closed my eyes and prepared myself for the sweet ecstasy of pain that awaited me. less than a second later, i felt my body press down onto the hard concrete. when i opened up my eyes... i found myself staring up at the sky. it must have been quite a fall because i noticed that some of the studs on my belt got pushed flat. i laid on the ground for a few seconds and then got up to pick up the board... casually, as if nothing happened. i shrugged my shoulders and laughed at my own misfortune. i examined my injuries... thankfully, no broken bones. just some minor cuts on my right elbow and my right palm. it was bleeding but i thought nothing of it.... i've gone through worse. part of me even wished that i could have gotten that on camera. that was mtv jackass™ material right there. :)

jason pointed out that i was bleeding. "yeah, i know." i showed him my elbow. i laughed, slightly embarrassed.

"no. on your back... a lot," jason said. "you want me to call the ambulance?"

"huh?" i wondered what he was talking about. then suddenly, i felt the warm blood dripping down from the back of my head.

we went to u.h. and cleaned the blood off. except for mild dizzyness, i felt fine. "dude, i think i'm gonna pass out," i joked.

we ended up skating down to kaimuki for lunch, and i called jon to pick us up. we bought a first aid kit and headed home. i don't know what was worse... feeling the alcohol burn on my wounds, or nearly getting my skull cracked open in half.

later that night, we met up with eric and johnny. eric couldn't stop staring at the open cut on the back of my head.

he suggested that i should start wearing hats.

021502
it's always great to be loved back. :)

rachel's blog entry:

hope everyone has a decent v days :) me = insomnia and it sux. so... i'm working on a new lay out... its gonna be simple... and im getting rid of a lot of stuff. and I have a good feeling that this new sites gonna be pretty damn cool. and like all kewl things its gonna take a while. but I promise its gonna be cool :P Oh yes.... cool... but not as damn fuckin cool as mark. mark is so cool. *sigh* nothing cooler then an asian punk. i wish i was cool dammit. and dammit mark, i love everyone too, including you. snoogles?

go visit rachel's site! she's rad. :)



due to uhunix upgrades, my website will be unavailable for three days... from the 16th to the 18th. this also includes my e-mail account and the image files i use for my aa pages.

eh... who gives?

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i've been doing this site for a little over 3 years now. here are some of my past layouts:



















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"this is my command: love each other."

- john 15:17

happy valentine's day!

i love every one of you. :)

021102

"the only time i ever saw god run—was when he ran to me."

- shaded red

i think most of you know that i run a christian punk page on aa. two weeks ago, i found this note from "xbeyond" in my inbox:

umm i`m not gonna say anything bout your site, but uhh you goin to the wef????

the same guy left an entry in my guestbook a few days ago:

christ`s approval of GREED? since when does god say "go forth so that you may gather up ppl to worship false idols of bands."??? all your page is advertisement for bands.. that doesn't seem very christian like or godly to me. nor full of love. but i prolly shouldn't get into that, for i don't want to offend anyone. (truth is usually offensive to those who don`t want to accept it)

i also received an entry from a person named wazaloo:

praise the lord.. =)

i left an response in xbeyond's guestbook:

um... what ever happened to, and i quote, "i'm not gonna say anything bout your site"? anyway, thanks for your comments. at least it was constructive. i take it that you`re not on aa to make friends?

while i was in xbeyond's guestbook, i noticed that wazaloo left an entry in his guestbook also:

i dont' know if u check this page pften or not but i saw ur msg thru the christianpunk thing. i agree with u.. many of the ppl or christians nowadays seem to take secular things and make it christian.. yes we shouldnt' judge ppl by their love for christ but we are a temple of god.. we are representing him.. if we dress like a punk or whatever .. what do u think the pagans will think about about us christians.. hah but anywyas.. just adderssing my concern.. and i totally admire the way u stand up to what u believe.. if u have time.. write back so i know u exist.. =) leen

apparently, christian punks are not "christian enough" because of the way we dress. christians are "temple of god"... therefore, we should dress "christian-like"?

and just how exactly do you dress "christian-like"? and who defines it? the jesus fashion police?

christian punks love god as much as the "true christians" do. but why bother explaining the ways of the punk scene to someone who is obviously intolerant to anything outside of their little bubble world of set standards... their little rulebook on what is "normal" and what isn't?

here's a verse off of the bible. if you've got a problem with this, go deal it out with god... because these are the words of god himself, from 1 samuel 16:7:

do not look at his appearance or at his physical stature, because i have refused him. for the lord does not see as man sees; for man looks at the outward appearance, but the lord looks at the heart.

you either love god or you don't. it's that simple.

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apparently, i'm the only person in america who didn't know that the super bowl was on today. :P



jon's coming back. i've got mixed feelings about this... but i know that my brother is a rational thinking person. i believe that he has made this decision because he saw that it was the best for him. hopefully, he'll be able to get his life back into one piece. not that i'm worried... jon's not the one to live an unproductive existence.



oooh, someone mentioned me on their online journal!:

if you're from hawaii and miss it real badly, like i do, then go to this site and cry over REAL beaches and other hawaiian landscapes... (eg: the ala moana shopping center parking lot) because mark kim takes !@#$%^&* awesome pictures. okay, why the heck did xanga just add a link to the symbols. stupid xanga. anyway.. MARK KIM ROCKS!!!! oh yeah, did i mention his awesome pictures are taken with disposable cameras? freaking a!!!

eunice's journal is one of the few online journals that i try to read daily. it's always a good read. go see it for yourself.

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"i'm not a punk. how can i be? show me the way to conformity. try to be different but it's always the same... end up playing someone else's game."

- descendents

savry wants me to do photography for rivalmag.com. is that cool or what?

went to the show at pink cadillac. lose money, the sticklers, generic, and the knumbskulls (it was their last show, supposedly) played. i took jason along with me. it was the first time he's ever been to a show.

tonight, some guy went up on stage and asked for alex soze.

a few "alex sozes" in the crowd raised their hands in the air, shouting "i'm alex soze!"

the guy repeated, "alex soze? please come up to the front... because there are people here who want to kick your ass."