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the weakerthans - civil twilight

my confusion corner commuters
are cursing the cold away
as december tries to dissemble
the length of their working day

and they bite their mitts off
to show me transfers, deposit change
and i can't stop finding your face
in their faces, all rearranged

and angry like you never were

and i ease us back into traffic
dusk comes on and i wonder
why i'm always remembering you
in civil twilight

for the most part i think about golfing
and constantly calculate
all the seconds left in the minutes
and so on, etcetera

or recite the names
of provinces and hollywood actors
oh, ontario!
oh, jennifer jason leigh!

this part of the day bewilders me

streets slow down and ice over
dusk comes on and i struggle
to stop to stop to stop thinking of you
in civil twilight

hey, every other hour i pass that house
where you told me that you had to go
i wonder if the landlord has fixed the crack
that i stared at instead of staring back at you?

my chance to say something
seemed so brief, but it wasn't
now i know
i had plenty of time

between the sunset and certified darkness
dusk comes on and i follow
the exhaust from memory up to the end
the civil twilight

012308

"it's funny how you never think about the women you've had. it's always the ones who get away that you can't forget."

- chuck palahniuk

finally saw marie at work today. after having her away for more than half a year, it was really great to see her back. although, it's a pity that we work in different sections now.

the application that i put in yesterday for section transfer got processed a lot faster than i thought it would. i was actually approached today by both rose and jerry to talk about my transfer request. rose asked me to which section i wanted to transfer to. and jerry tried to talk me out of transfering, altogether. i talked to marie about the possiblity of me transfering to her section. i got the impression that she wanted me to do it, but i'm probably going to take jerry's suggestion and just stay put. i like where i am right now, anyway. and, no, i did not put in a transfer request with the intention of moving to marie's section.

i've spent yet another entire workday with noreen. i feel like we're building more and more comfort towards each other everyday. it's nice that we can both let our guards down and just kick it, but i hope i'm not gettiing myself pushed into the "friend zone."

my godson, immanuel, dropped by the office today! i introduced him to noreen for the first time.

noreen declined to hold him, claiming that she was too scared to hold a baby. manuel, instead, sat on my lap and stared at noreen in wonder and gave her a smile. i think he likes her, too. :)

oh yeah, by the way, immanuel = total chick-magnet.

not that i'd ever be fucked-up enough to use my godson to pick up women, but just sayin'.

012008
oh, sweet, r.k.l. put up a video i shot of them (when i saw them play, eh, almost four years ago) on their myspace page.


011908
i've done some redesign on the navigation, and the site loads considerably faster now.

hooray for three-day weekends.

011808

"today is the kind of day where the sun only comes up to humilate you."

- chuck palahniuk

ok, i'm in a really shit mood today, but watching this video cheered me up a little:


011808

"and in the darkened underpass, i thought, oh god, my chance has come at last. but then a strange fear gripped me, and i just couldn't ask."

- the smiths

i couldn't wait to see noreen at work—she's been on my mind constantly ever since wednesday. i got the feeling that she had been thinking about me, also, because we exchanged beaming smiles when we saw each other this morning.

i loved working with noreen for these last three days. now that the workweek is over, i'm feeling totally bummed out. :(

i think some old feelings might be coming back. i don't know why i ever gave up on her—she is wonderful.

all these months, to be quite honest, i missed her.

011708

"when i see my first lady angel, if god ever sees fit to show me one, it'll be her wings and not her face that'll make my mouth fall open. i've already seen the prettiest face that ever could be."

- kurt vonnegut, jr.

yet another great day with noreen—even more so than yesterday, actually. i'm fucking glowing right now. i can't seem to wipe this stupid grin off of my face.

011608

"...i feel the imaginary zip in my belly starting to open up, and i think NOW. now is the time to fall in love. just open that fuckin zip up and let the entrails of love engulf you both in a messy rapture, as this raging bull and mad cow get on board the love boat. look stupidly into each other's eyes; talk shite, get fat."

- irvine welsh

due to unique circumstances, i had to work with noreen the entire day. we haven't really spoken to each other in months—we just had sort of a falling out, i suppose.

for the first few minutes—perhaps hours—we said very little to each other. like i said, we haven't spoken to each other in months—natuarally, we were both feeling awkward and uncomfortable, but i eventually chatted her up. comfort was built, and, soon, the chat turned into a conversation, then the conversation turned into exchanging of mild flirtations—which was where we left off a few months ago, before i decided not to pursue her anymore. feeling demoralized due to lack of progress, i felt that it would be better for me to get out before i invested too much of myself. but in doing so, i broke off all contact with her. which was a mistake—i realize that now—but at the time, i felt that it would lessen the pain of getting over her if i did that. it certainly wasn't easy—considering that we work together in the same office, and having the see her nearly everyday—to be reminded of what i gave up on, and what could have been...

i went to the opening of the 2008 hawaii legislative session at the state capitol with a few co-workers, including noreen. i obviously wasn't interested in the session itself—it just gave me an excuse to spend time with noreen.

the u.h. football team was there to recieve an honor from the state senators and representatives for their 2007 w.a.c. championship. noreen, and several other girls were practically drooling over the football players. i got pretty jealous because i wished that noreen would look at me the way that she was looking at those dudes...

she was also actively seeking out for colt brennan, who was nowhere to be seen.

psssh... i can take him. :\

in any case, it was really nice spending time with her, and i'm glad that we're talking to each other again.

ever since i left work, i can't stop thinking about her. i also seem to have developed a perpetual smile on my face.

011508
it's a theme...

new order - 1963 dayglo abortions - 1967 the stooges - 1969 the stooges - 1970 the clash - 1977 gizmos - 1978 the smashing pumpkins - 1979 angry samoans - 1981 genetic control - 1984 at the drive-in - 1986 rubbers - 1988 less than jake - 1989 the quintessentials - 1989 mad sin - 1999

011508
LAWL.

by penguingod:

my hate for the state is like a truck berserker look, a dumpster—lets go fuck berserker plain-clothed piggies threw the rock berserker capitalists are just so obscene oppressive bastards—you know what i mean they take your soul and then just rip you apart they'll steal your heart would you like to smoke some pot? berserker my hate for the state is a ticking clock berserker all fascists can suck my cock berserker look, a dumpster—lets go fuck berserker

011408

"we need hawaii as much and a good deal more than we did california. it is manifest destiny."

- william mckinley

some photos i took today of banners put up on the grounds of iolani palace by one of the many hawaii nationalist/secessionist/separatist groups in hawaii, the reinstated hawaiian nation, presumably in remembrance of the january 17, 1893 overthrow of the hawaiian monarchy:























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photos of the year 2007:



london



arlington, united states of america



germany



gaza city



beijing



baghdad



gaza city



nanning, people's republic of china



united states of america



gaza city



jenin, israel



baghdad



gaza strip



united states of america



mashad, iran



yangon, myanmar



gaza city



baghdad



baletwayne, somalia



gaza strip



muqdadiyah, iraq



yangon, myanmar



rustamiyah, iraq



gowardehs, afghanistan



blacksburg, united states of america



west bank



washington



qubah, iraq



nairobi, kenya



greenland



myanmar



kandahar



rawalpindi, pakistan



gaza strip

010108
oh, fuck, we just got PWNED. ;_;

university of hawaii warriors lose their first ever b.c.s. bowl appearance, 41-10.

i knew it was going to be a tough game, but i would have never imagined that we would lose this badly. with the entire nation watching, at that. i hate to say this, but it was a bit embarrassing. it was our chance to shine, and we missed it.

you know what, though? i'm proud of our team, regardless of the loss. this was the best season we've had in the history of our football team. undefeated regular season, first outright w.a.c. championship, qualified to play at one of the b.c.s. bowl games, one of our players a heisman finalist... those things count for something.

anyway, congratulations to georgia on their win. they clearly were the better team today.

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for the win!

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happy new year! have yourselves a great 2008!